I write this feeling broken.
My outlet for the past year has been ripped away from me. Not only does it seem that my appeal was denied (TDC will not be coming back), but my personal account has been blocked from accessing or posting on Facebook.
It’s silly to be upset. I am not lying injured in the street, my house has not been destroyed and my family is healthy, but I feel broken.
Maybe I have built TDC up to be an idol for me. Maybe in light of the truth I concerned myself more with the image I was portraying than the building up of the body. Maybe this is God’s way of showing me that and fixing that.
It seemed like a good run, it grew much faster than I imagined it would and the response was mostly positive.
I won’t be able to answer those hanging questions people had left. I got messages almost every day from people who were hurt and needed comfort. I got prayer requests, concerned parents or wives. Dealing with things that I spoke openly about in my struggles.
I celebrated my one year anniversary away from pornography, through God’s providence and the devil has attacked. Do I know if and when I’ll be back on Facebook? No. Maybe I don’t need to be anymore.
The fact of the matter is, the world hates God. It sounds cliche to say things like that, but they do. They hate a God who hates their sin, and when sin is exposed. When it is stood against and talked about, the world will do all it can to shut it down in the name of hate speech.
Don’t lose hope, don’t lose faith. The podcast, Youtube and website will continue.
Soli Deo Gloria